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Undescribable Passion - Freestyle

This just came out the way it did and sorry if it is too hard to understand ...

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The passion between us is so strong that it still resonates within me.  I crumble with the thoughts of us together.  It has been six days too long since we were in close proximity and the moment that he came close to me, I reached pure bliss.  It was an euphoric moment.  The thoughts of us makes my knees weak and stomach turn.  I can not even describe this connection we share because there are not enough words to describe this feeling.  I am still lost for words but the only words that seem to flow from my lips are "I love you" and those words are not even enough, so I try to show this love with my touch, my kisses, my smile.  His eyes glow while I stare back at them and his eyes smile with his lips.  I can barely type this because the passion is too much for my mind to catch up to it.  I can not really describe it but all I know is that it makes my soul smile - it makes me happy inside and out.

Wearing her heart on her sleeve,

Liza Mae
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Morning Life

Another Monday morning creeps up and my 7:00 am alarm on my blackberry beeps then vibrates repeatedly until I tend to its incessent calling.  snooze. beep. vibrate. beep. vibrate. snooze. beep. vibrate. Dismiss.

It is now 7:27am and I drag my feet then body out of bed.  Remnants of yesterday flutter through my head.  I grab my towel and soak in the hot shower, washing away yesterday (or the weekend).  

This weekend was eventful:
Friday - Beach volleyball.  
Saturday - Bridal Shower.  Long walk and talk on the beach.
Sunday - Swimming indoors.  Family Celebrations.

While I sit and watch BT (Breakfast Television) I put on my toner and lotion my skin.  I decide on what to wear for the working day - a black skirt with a three-quarter length white button down shirt.  I have my breakfast: a piece of naan, cup of soya milk, and leftover lechon.  I put on my make-up and then pack my gym bag.  I run downstairs and put on my walking shoes then I am out the door.  Ohhh it is chilly this morning so I run back inside and grab a sweater.  You never know with this Toronto weather.  So finally I am out the door and walking to the bus stop.

From the distance I see 2 buses pass.  *damn it*  Then I walk faster hoping another would come as quickly and as hoped - I see one coming.  *sigh* of relief.  I step on the bus and put on my iPod.  I get to Kennedy Station and I weave in and out of the crowd to transfer on the Subway.  I sit and I pull out my current read (Kite Runner) and emerge myself in my book and music.

I realize this entry really has no point but I'll post it anyways.  I didn't even end it. lol.  But I am now here at work ...

Time save me.

-Liza Mae

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Horoscope for Wednesday, Aug 13th, 2008 - Tarot.com

Hers Gemini -- If you have made a practice out of avoiding commitments, today could offer you a difficult choice. You may present a convincing case around your desire for intimacy, yet still retreat emotionally when someone gets too close to your heart. If there was ever a wise time to muster up your courage, this would be it. You don't need to repeat old patterns just because you're afraid of getting hurt.

His Aries  -- You may withdraw your support today for someone because you want your message to get across loud and clear. Or you might need to disengage from a project that you feel has gone astray. In either case, pay careful attention to your motives, for your actions may not be helpful to anyone if they are based on fear. Conserving your energy makes sense, but don't make someone else pay for your faulty planning.


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Found this interesting connection and insight between horoscopes.  Trying to digest it.

- Liza Mae

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sliding doors

I wrote this on my Blackberry while on the subway.  There are two ways you can read it.  All in one long stride or skip formats.  So read all the regular fonts first - then the italicized.  The italicized is what actually was occurring on the subway and the regular font is what I was thinking during those moments.

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So I am standing at Pape station after my Hip Hop dance class wondering why I am standing alone?!? 100 metres of him ... I. step on the train and I am getting farther and farther...

station . stop . station . 
People exit ... people enter ... people sit
People read ... Little boy sneezes ...

I have little tolerance but I am patient. I rather not fight so I surrender. I stepped on the train as he wanted.

Victoria Park ... 
2 more stops 'til mine. 
Victoria Park ... 
At a stand still ... 
Waiting patiently. 
Listening to "Losing my way" by Justin Timberlake.

I take things as they are. If the light is Green - I go, if it is Red - I stop.

Boy stares in to my eyes. 
My eyes smile.

I no longer run reds because I am trying to listen to your words from your lips and your eyes, I do not negate them.

Kennedy.  I am at my stop.


- Liza Mae

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Canada's Wonderland Adventure

Yesterday I headed to Canada's Wonderland with James for his work's annual event.  I was stoked because I love roller coasters.  So on our drive there I wasn't feeling too good.  On top of that the weather wasn't the greatest - it rained all day, which didn't help my sick situation.  So we had the buffet which included hot dogs, hamburgers, etc.  I packed my plate to which I thought I could handle.  I ate half a hot dog and it felt like it wasn't going down, the way it should.  So I pushed the plate over and drank Sprite hoping the feeling would subside.  I sat and waited ... sat and waited.  I started to get hot flashes and my stomach started to turn.  I ran to the bathroom and puked 2x in the toilet.  I thought I would feel better but boy was I wrong.  I was walking and it happened again but this time in a bush.  lol.  James saw this time and watched in disgust.  The bile was pink (I say it was from the hot dog).  So we ended up sitting in my car for a couple of hours hoping it would surpass but I puked 2 more times.  After that I felt fine and we ended up going on Behemouth (biggest roller coaster in Canada and worth it!) and a couple rides after that.  Fun times.

So now I am home, afraid to eat anything, and have the biggest headache ever. 

I am craving McDonalds but whatever!!?!?!

-Liza Mae
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Quote of the Day

Funny that I found this in an email from work.  It seemed to fit the moment (blog about later):

"You do not have VICTORY if you do not have problems. 
You have VICTORY if your problems don't have you
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Res - Tsunami



I feel so nice just when you're here
The reason why is not so clear
I knew the first time when you told me
I'd fall in love just as you'd hold me

And now I want to stay at your side tonight
I want to watch you as the sun lights up your eyes
I want to know when you wake first thing you see is me
You're all the things I prayed that I'd meet

[Chorus:]
Ride, ride this wave of mine
There're brighter things out on the other side
Ride, ride this wave of mine
I know that things are going to be alright

Moments they come and then they go
You'll feel so high and then before you know
I could of sworn our future was set in stone
But I guess some things it's just as well for God to know

So now I concentrate on turning wrong to right
I'm going to let go things I held inside so tight
I'm going to live and let forgive things said in spite
Clear out the smoke and usher in the light

[Chorus]
 
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Word of the Day - edify

Main Entry:
ed·i·fy Listen to the pronunciation of edify
Pronunciation:
\ˈe-də-ˌfī\
Function:
transitive verb
Inflected Form(s):
ed·i·fied; ed·i·fy·ing
Etymology:
Middle English, from Anglo-French edifier, from Late Latin & Latin; Late Latin aedificare to instruct or improve spiritually, from Latin, to erect a house, from aedes temple, house; akin to Old English ād funeral pyre, Latin aestas summer
Date:
14th century
1archaic a: build b: establish
2: to instruct and improve especially in moral and religious knowledge : uplift; also : enlighten, inform

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"We have to do or change ... to edify our relationship, not break it down"

Now I get the word and its full meaning.  So many changes that I have to go through to edify myself resulting in an enlightened self.  It is time to put old ways behind and finally grow up.  I have been playing this game for too long that I have become one with the game.  Time to  move on to another chapter in life.  It is time to rectify my thoughts and actions or inactions. 

- Liza Mae
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Change ...

"I have come to grips with the reality that
some people never change
though they try for the sake of another
true self comes to surface eventually.  
True change can only happen when one realizes the need for change."

-Liza Mae